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I have the idea, eventually will edit it.
I have the idea, eventually will edit it.
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For my dear Savan <3 :D
Al THLDI- The Happy Latin Dutch Italian
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I checked my watch. Seeing she had not come down yet I got concerned and decided to take the breakfast upstairs and check on her. Her door was shut, I opened it anyway. She laid in bed, curled up in her sheets. I walked towards her with the tray, sat on the bed, and looked at her for a second. "No work today?"
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"Go away" I mumble cuddling the bunny closer to me and pulling the blanket over my head. When I heard the door opening knowing it was only christopher coming to bug me.
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She was hugging the rabbit that belonged to our daughter. I sighed softly. "Brought you breakfast hun."
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"I don't want any, go away" I mumble through the blanket, keeping my head buried under the blanket. I could here the cracking in my voice from all the crying I been doing. So I was pretty sure that christopher could here it too. But I didn't care what he thought anymore, I didn't care what anyone thought anymore.
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I set the tray aside. I know she was still hurting. It had been a whole year. I pulled her in my arms, held her close to me. I didn't care if she would try push me aside.
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"Go away just leave me alone" I say trying to push christopher away when I felt him wrap his arms around me. "Everyone leaves me so just go away. Leave me to be alone like i'm suppose to be. I'm meant to always be alone" I whisper through my tears as I felt them slide down my cheeks. I was pretty sure christopher could tell I was crying even though my head was still covered by the blankets. But I honestly didn't care what he thought anymore.
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She cried. She tried pushing me. I held her closer. I felt her tears moisten my shirt. "Savannah..." I whispered. Trying to soothe her. Dunno if it would work. She clearly didn't even want me here in the first place.
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"Just go away" I cried almost screamed still trying to push christopher away. "I don't want to be here anymore. Just leave me alone. I want to be with them" I mumbled as I cried a bit harder. Banging on christopher's chest as well as trying to push away.
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That was it. I grabbed her from the shoulders and shook her. "You are not the only one who lost them. Not the only one who hurts." I looked at her face. My jaw was clenching. I could feel my own tears welling up. "I lost them too. I hurt too. I'd be damn to lose my wife too. I know you are in there but please stop thinking that it's just you damn it!"
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"You already lost me. You lost me the day that you let them manipulate you to say yes to going out with those people. I already said that they couldn't go when the called me at the studio earlier that day. But i'm sure they never told you that" I say glaring at him. "You lost me the minute you walked out of this house." I say pushing christopher away and rolling on my side away from him. As I curled into a tight ball on the bed.
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I let go of her and stood looking at her. "Blame it on me, yes go ahead. You need to blame it on someone. It's me. Fine. But it's been a fucking damn year and you are sleeping with their toys and moping around!" I was already raising my voice.
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"Why do you even care?" I say turning my head to look up at him. "You left, you don't care about me. You should of just stayed gone and never came back" I say turning my head back towards the hall away from him.
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Hey polar bear! Do you possibly want to continue with this rp?
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Yup
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Then it is your turn if you want to continue. 
Al THLDI- The Happy Latin Dutch Italian
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Haha right, I'll post later tonight then!
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"I made a mistake, damn it..,sue me then..fuck how long will you punish me for it? You think I don't feel guilt? That I didn't miss you...miss them? It's in the past..we have a lot of time ahead of us still...I'm still your husband...I'm alive...you're alive.." I stated. I know I never really broke down when they died...I didn't have it in me..maybe she blames me for not feeling enough, I don't know.
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"WHERE WERE YOU?" I yelled turning my head to look at him. "WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU? YOU WEREN'T THERE. YOU RAN LIKE A COWARD AND LEFT. SO WHY WOULD I NEED YOU NOW? SO YOU CAN LEAVE AGAIN?" I yell more glaring at him with tears sliding down my face. "Just go and leave me alone. Leaving and disappearing is what you do best anyway." I mumble as I turn my back to him and move away from him on the bed. Curling my body in a ball on the bed under the blankets. Bringing the stuffed bunny closer to me.
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"I left because you shut me out...you pushed me..you never stopped blaming me...I didn't know what to do" I sighed. "I hoped you'd come to reason soon enough..." I sat on the bed and looked at her."I'm sorry Savannah...'
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"So you were a coward and left?" I mumble still looking at the wall. "Just go away and leave again. Your going to leave again anyway. So just save us both the time and effort and do it now." I mumble closing my eyes.
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"I'm not leaving this time...I'm staying for good as I should have had always..." I rested my hand on her shoulder. "I know that it's going to take some time..."
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"You say that now... but I know you and eventually your going to run again... It's what you do, whenever something gets hard you run and disappear. So why don't you just save us the time and leave now." I mumble closing my eyes feeling the tears still sliding down my cheeks. "Just leave me alone like I am suppose to be. I'm suppose to always be alone" I mumble moving my shoulder so his hand slid off of my shoulder.
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"It's not going to be easy...it's going to take time..." I sighed and just layer with her, pulled her close to me once again. "I've missed you every day...every night..."
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"Just leave me alone" I mumble tears still sliding down my cheeks as I try to move away from him. It's been almost a year since I felt someone touch me and I wasn't use to it.
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"no." I whispered and just held her close. I was going to let her fall asleep in my arms like she once used to do. I wasn't going to leave my wife again.
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