So I'm going to close my eyes

So I'm going to close my eyes
Maybe its all a dream
I'll be in my teens
And stop it all
Maybe I could make it to be perfect.
Maybe nothing will be broken

Souls would be saved
Happiness could be restored
Sanity would be fine
Love may be existent

The scars wouldn't exist
The bad memories could be dismissed
A chance to be a person
A chance to feel since then

So I'm going to close my eyes
Maybe tap my heels like Dorothy
Wish there's no place like home
Feel that warm embrace I once felt
Feel that love that once existed
Maybe I would have had a chance
To not be broken

I may have found love in other forms
I may have realized friendships exist
I may have learned and experienced life a bit
Yet I'm broken

So I'm going to close my eyes
Wishing it to be all a dream
Be back at my teens
The walls
The habits
That were created for whatever reason
Maybe they wouldn't be needed
If I could stop it all

So I open my eyes
I'm back to reality.
I'm in my mid twenties
It was not a dream
If I had only known what I knew now back then
It would all have been different.