I awoke to Paul clattering around in the kitchen, my usual morning alarm. For a few moment I simply sat in the bliss of a warm bed, until I felt Gordon padding on top of me, jumping off the bed to get to his breakfast. Finally, with a groan I dragged myself up, rubbing the sleep off of my face and lazily walking across my room, past the old double doors that closed myself off from the rest of the apartment, and brought myself to the coffee maker. Thankfully, Paul had already made a pot, and I poured myself the biggest mug I could find of strong, black caffeine.
“Morning, sleeping beauty.” I could hear Paul leaning against the fridge, nearly inhaling a bowl of cereal. I managed to throw him a sleepy, half-smile as I sipped my coffee.
“I have some errands to do this morning, wanna come along?” I asked him after a few moments, the silence in the room being disturbed by his loud crunching.
“Nah.” He said past a mouthful. “Gotta work.” I heard the fabric of his shirt rustle as he shrugged, and my tired smile turned into my regular grin.
“Translation, you want to see the new babe of a secretary.” I teased him, knowing there was no other logical reason for Paul to be in the printing office so early.
“Pretty much.” I felt him throw a Cheerio at me, pegging me right in the temple. This was how the usual Paul-Adam morning proceeded. A few lame jokes, Paul asking if I needed anything from the store, and me wishing he didn’t baby me so much. He was a good friend, however, like nearly everyone else, he felt as if it was his duty to look after me.
Once Paul had left for work, I put my mug into the dish washer and walked back to my room, murmuring small coos of affection toward Gordon whenever I felt him rub up against me.
My closet was probably the most well-organized thing a twenty-whatever guy owned. It was a system, and one that seemed to work pretty well. I would do the laundry for both myself, and Paul, then fold things, and he would sort out what was mine and his, setting my clothes together so the outfits at least matched without looking too goofy. I dressed in mostly basics, neutral colours, simple cuts…I didn’t want to imagine what I would look like if I had a high-maintenance wardrobe. My clothes were set up in a fool-proof system, that nearly whatever shirt I grabbed would look alright with the pants. Well, at least I hope that’s the way it worked. It would be a shame if all these years I was wearing Spongebob Squarepants t-shirts or something. I grinned at the thought, grabbing a fresh shirt and pants, dressing quickly and grabbing my regular, leather bag.
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Taxi cabs were my best friends. And with all the money my parents always sent me, it didn’t even leave a dent in my funds. They were always worried for me, although they shouldn’t be. I was glad they were so supportive, but there was a thin line between smothering and support.
After hearing two honks, I knew the cab was waiting for me, humming lightly as I skipped down the steps, bag tossed over one shoulder and walking stick out.
I climbed in, telling the cabbie the address of a local market, grinning to myself as I thought of my plan. I still had around an hour before the group session, and I knew exactly how to fill that time.
The grocery store was fairly empty, but I still walked with my long, white stick in front of me, cautious to whomever might be sneaking around.
Carefully, I fished the tape recorder out of my pocket, clicked rewind, and play as I walked aimlessly through the isles, listening to the voices of all the people I had met yesterday, feeling my throat tighten slightly at the sound of Molly’s voice, a blooming smile forming on my lips. I had been to this store a few times, and thankfully I knew how it was set up, so I wouldn’t be awkwardly roaming around forever, stubborn enough not to ask for help.
Fourty-five minutes later, one of my arms was weighed down by two of those recyclable, hemp grocery bags, other hand occupied by my walking stick as I hopped into another cab.
“Fredericks Center, please. Near the apartments on Grant.” I told the cabbie, feeling my eyes beginning to twinkle out of excitement. I just wanted to get there already. I wanted to hear her voice, to listen to everything she had to tell me. Also, I had an amazing plan for today’s lesson.
I retracted my walking stick, putting it into my bag beside the tape recorder and paying the driver, nearly tumbling out of the cab and forgetting the grocery bags in the process. In each arm, I cradled a grocery bag, walking gracefully in long, confident strides down the entry path to the center.
As I leaned my shoulder against the glass door, I could hear Mrs.Aberbalm chuckle lightly. “What’cha got there, Adam?” She called to me as I passed her quickly, already racing down the halls, stumbling over my feet in the process.
“I’m late for group! Again!” I called over my shoulder in response, voice echoing and bouncing off the much too familiar halls of my second home. Before I got to room 4B, I took a breath, trying to hold both the bags in one arm, the contents almost falling out in the process. With my free hand, I fixed my thick, boyish curls to the best of my ability, feeling my cheeks warm up just slightly. Why was I trying to look nice?
You know why, dumbass. I thought to myself, putting a bag in each hand and opening the door with my hip.
“Good morning!” I called as I entered, walking a bit slower than I usually did, not knowing where people were situated, however, knowing exactly how the room was set up. Today, I had told the class to meet in a very special room. The theater. Most of the room was bare, with wooden floors, however on one side, behind a velvet curtain, was a stage. That would come in handy for what I had in mind.
I walked to the front of the room, placing the bags down and grabbing a chair, ears perking up at the small noises everyone made to greet me. They had already formed themselves into a circle, which made me smile slightly.
“Do you all remember what we spoke about yesterday?” I asked the group, standing in front of my chair and picking up one of the grocery bags. I heard murmurs of curious acknowledgement, and slowly fished around in the bag until my fingers grasped what I was looking for.
“For today’s exercise, I would like each of you to come up and get something special I have in this bag, for each of you. After that, we’ll run through some trust exercises, and then lunch! Sound good?” I was aware I sounded much too excited, but that was part of the show. For a blind guy, I still had a few tricks up my sleeve. People were getting curious now, which was exactly where I wanted them.
“Anita, please come up.” I said softly, hearing a chair squeak lightly, and footsteps approaching me. Gently, I drew my hand out of the bag, revealing a box of Bounce laundry sheets. The middle aged woman was frozen in front of me, and for a second I heard her breath catch. Slowly I held the box out and I felt her take it, a soft sniffle echoing around the room. Suddenly, she hugged me, and I felt her tears soaking into my shirt. She broke away shortly, returning to her seat.
“It’s strange being in a new place, especially a facility where you don’t know anyone. I just hope with each of these things, you all can get settled in and simply…relax.” My voice was like milk and honey around the room, a sweet smile painting my lips as I tried to be sincere. However, I was sure my eyes were giving me away, twinkling brightly with excitement as I called Brian’s name. For him, I had brought a set of two Burt’s Bees lip balms, and a jar of hand lotion. He said in group yesterday how he would always bite his lips now, and his nails, making them both dry…and these things made him feel better.
I called each name around the circle, and each reaction was completely different, yet relatively the same. Some of the women cried, a few of the men hugging me strongly or put their hand on my shoulder. Laundry sheets for Anita, lip balm for Brian, a new pair of tube socks for Ken, and the movie
Titanic for Bonnie. The other patients received other mediocre, however easily-attainable drug store items until the bags were empty, and there was one name left.
“Molly.” I said, voice hardly above a whisper. Everyone could see that there was nothing left in my hands, and I knew the tension was growing.