ooc- I'm SO sorry it's so long... I got bored and it took me like three freakin hours so everything's okay... D:
I watched him silently, pulling out the last thing I had left to drink. A Redbull, it was best, something to keep me going. I took in a short breath, my eyes flickering up to the male once again. "Sleep...I'll be here when you awaken" I spoke simply, turning to watch the wall blankly. I took in a short breath before pulling my shotgun up. "Sleep well" I muttered, pulling the can to my lips to take a large swig. I sighed a moment, pulling the notebook into my back pocket. I was trying to keep ignorance in the room. I didn't want to simply look like I was packing up to leave.
*This is for the best* My mind tried to remind me. I simply shook my head, a sigh escaping my lips as I watched the wall. Now we are here for the waiting game...
The grip on my shotgun tightened. I pulled the can to my lips, finnishing it off. I could get out of the room quickly, and silent enough to not wake him from what I decided was a light snooze already. I started to dress once again, first, slowly and silently pulling my boots back on. I tied quickly, pulling the pistol into it's holster. I pulled the note from my pocket again. I opened it, starting to write.
"I'm sorry for this. Have a healthy life. I hope to find you sane and alive after all this passes. I regret leaving like this, but I'm growing too close to you. I wouldn't be able to end you if it came to it. I'm sorry.Remember, Avoir La Foi-Faith"
I ripped it out quietly, looking over a moment before placing the sheet under the can, where it could be seen. I stood silently, using the wall to help me up. I hoped he had been asleep, for I hadn't waited as long as I should have. I didn't want to risk it. I took in a small breath, limping to the door before looking back a moment. "Sorry" A sad smile crossed my face. Into the darkness I went...
I looked up toward the sky. My eyes had not been able to ajust yet. It would be a while. It was simply just too dark.*This wasn't sucha good idea* "Well I'm NOT going back. Not after I left such little explained" My voice was soft, and it quivered softly. I needed to find another place to hide. I took in a deep breath, walking toward what used to be the middle of town. Using the small alleyways, I knew well. There had to be a place still safe to stay.
Taking in short breaths, I walked slowly along, making sure to keep ears clear. I stumbled on a body once, but continued onward. The pain in my feet was growing, but I couldn't stop. I simply hoped the stitches would hold as I walked along the way. I couldn't risk bleeding out here. Making my way across the way, I stopped when I noticed a house through one of the alleyways. It seemed simply untouched. I took in a short breath. Could I trust myself here? Would there be people, threats, there? I shook my head, turning a moment. There was a loud moan, and my throat tightened shortly. I had to get there fast. I shok my head, limping forward quickly. I couldn't die. Not after running off again.
I reached the street, looking across the street a moment before dashing as fast as I coud across the way. My feet were killing me, but I had to find someplace. I took in the veiw a moment before walking up the sidewalk. What lay ahead of me? I wi*You're going to be okay, Faith. You acted the way most would have...Don't regret such things.* "I will" I whispered quietly the word getting caught in my throat.
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The house was an iridescent blue in the moon light as I walked up the narrowing pathway. The house seemed to be settled on a hill, more on the outskirts of town. I could tell this by the few things I could see in the moon light. I had not gone into town, but away from it. My sense of direction had been thrown off by the sounds of moaning, and the darkness. Thank god I didn't come across any infected in the almost pitch-black alleyways.
I could hear a small sigh escape my lips. This was lunacy and stupidity wrapped into a big ball of screwed. *Who ever had the bright idea to run off in the middle of the night should go jump off a cliff before they hurt someone. Hey! Look who's next in line.* my eyes flicked across the scene, ignoring the snicker in the back of my mind.
My feet made little noise as I reached the front door. A hand reached forward, the other on the handgun that had been replaced in my holster. My hand wrapped around the cool metal doorknob, my eyes wide as they had almost fully adjusted to the darkness. I turned the knob silently, and the door pulled open. It was strange that the door was unlocked, but in times of panic, people didn't give a shit about belongings in a house.
I was more alert than usual. I guessed this was because of the Red Bull I had to drink earlier. It wasn't that far back, was it? I couldn't tell, time was passing me by, and I frankly, didn't care. Moonlight shone through the curtain less windows that were all about the house. I would have to make do with one or two rooms. A whole house could never be kept under wraps by one person. It was common sense.
The handgun that was pointed in front of me, gleamed silver in the moonlight. I walked on, my eyes wide as I looked through the darkness.
I cleared one room. The living room if I wasn't mistaken. There was a large flat screen Television, a couch, and a large arm chair. An animal skin rug accompanied the two bookshelves, and fireplace that filled the walls. There were no infected here, the first room I had searched. There would either be bodies, infected, or all of the above in this house. That was the main reason I didn't like changing locations that weren't already clear.
I took in a deep breath, my eyes scanning what was a kitchen. It was average for others, minus the arm that lay, dismembered on the cutting board, and the blood that splattered the walls. I was adventurous enough to look in the cabinets. I was rewarded for my searching. Behind the head that rolled from the bottom least shelf-telling me more that the infection had reached this house-, were two miniature bottles of water, and a large can of Ravioli. It wasn't spoils, but it was food.
I regretted taking the time to search. I had to be careful in the darkness. Anything could sneak up on me. I couldn't turn back the clock now, I just had to 'Keep swimming' The thought popped into my head, and I almost started singing like a loon. I swept the thought out of my mind quickly when I came to a hallway.
It was rather short, with a simple four doors and pictures lining the walls. I guessed one was a bathroom, two were bedrooms, and one was a laundry room of some sort. I cleared the first three rooms easily, two bathrooms, and a game room, come to find out.
The third was a bathroom, small in size, but had all the necessities. I pulled open the door to find a family. Not of the living, not anymore. You could say one of the family members was still 'alive'. A small boy, of maybe eight or nine, sat there in a pool of blood, feasting on his father's intestines. It made me shiver at the thought. Luckily, the infected had not been alerted when I opened the door. Therefore, I pulled out my hunting knife, severing the spine at the neck silently.
I was glad the light kept me from seeing clearly. I wouldn't want to see the other family members in their dead states. It simply wouldn't be healthy.
After wiping my hands off, I made it back to one of the two rooms. For some reason, the one room had a metal door instead of wooden one, and it was large, bulky, and red. There was a lock, and no way for infected to get in. I had literally; hit the million dollar jack-pot in hell. The thought made me smile slightly as I made my way into the room for the night. For all I had been able to gather, the infected couldn't break down metal, nor could they Open doors. Therefore, I was safe for once.
I stumbled inside the room, closing the door behind me before making sure the knob was securely latched. Around this time, I stumbled to the single window, making sure it had been fully secured before walking to the bed. I fell on it silently, my eyes already closed. No more pressure was on my legs, and I was in heaven for a moment. Of course, I still had to write.
I made sure to keep my eyes open as I rolled over. I didn't want to fall asleep at such times. I muttered something to myself before folding open the darkly bound book. There was a short intake of breath before I pulled a pen from its hiding place on my belt. With this, I started to write.
"It has only been two days since my first meeting with Liam. Two days is all it took for me to feel too attached to a human. My emotions were all that filled my heart. It even hurt to leave. It hurt to sever ties. It hurt to leave him there, sleeping silently, whilst I ran off on a suicide mission, but it had to be done. . . I ran off tonight, in the middle of the night, only to keep him safe. I reread The Accident again, and that's what made me decide. I could snap, or he could snap, and we would both be dead. This comes to my next point. Until further notice, I am writing all survivors off as dead at this point. There is frankly no way humans can come back from such a downfall in life, can come back from such illness. Just as I say Liam, Jaq, and my many fellow survivors are dead, I feel I am too. My mind will snap, or I will starve in this room. This place, this horrid bedroom of blue tinted walls, will be my tomb. I will stay here, secluded, until I either turn mad, or starve. I have a can of ravioli, and a few bottles of water to keep me alive for a bit, but not for much longer than what I usually have been. This place will be my burial ground, may it be by zombies or by another human; my day is coming. The wait is so simple; I can almost taste death on my lips. I have damned myself along with Liam, and for that, this is the punishment I will bear. Of course, for once, I feel no remorse for all this. This was meant to take the human race out. Our stupidity is no longer acceptable on Earth. Why stop the inevitable? So for now, as I sit in this drab small room, I will simply think, and ponder what little life that is left. After I complete this article, I will complete my journal for now. This is now about life, and not about living. Or is it about both? I'm unsure. For now, I will let my insanity settle, and my eyes watch other things. A wall perhaps?"
I finished off my writing, deciding that it was more about random rambles than about Liam, and our departure. I didn't care at the moment. All this was for me to know, and others to hopefully read my journal, and find out. I shuffled under the covers, the room darker than before it seemed. My writing was probably horrid in such bad lighting, but I didn't care. I bundled under covers for now, feeling safer in with the slight scent of Axe in my nostrils. I had left the notebook open, on the page I had stopped at. Maybe I would reread it later? Maybe not. Now wasn't a time to think. Now, it was time for me to sleep.